A trip to the dentist this morning - yay :S. Just checkups for us all I hope. Then off to see a relative of my husband's who is in a care home. He's a gay man in his late 70's, very intelligent, chatty and opinionated but kind.

Tuesday 4 August

Husband has bought a new car. A 5 year old royal blue Ford Focus. It looks goooooood. I like it! His old (14 years old) car was falling to pieces really. He liked the colour - bright red lol.

We went over to our local park this afternoon, husband and eldest son played tennis and I went around the park with our dog and my two younger children who were on their bikes. Really humid day, today. With showers...really light showers which were quite refreshing.

On our way to the park (we walked) husband spotted a fish tank dumped by someone's dustbin, also a microwave dumped further along the road. So....on our way back husband picked up the microwave...opened it and saw there was no 'plate' inside it so then closed it - on his own arm lol. I laughed as he suffered, meanie. He left the microwave and went back to pick up the fishtank, which he has since cleaned up and is going to get some fish etc. It's amazing what people dump. Some stuff is still usable, and nothing is really wrong with it at all. I've seen all sorts dumped, as he has too.

Watching a bit of shopping t.v. this evening (just entertainment) - and my youngest (10 years of age) says in astonishment "Who wants to smell like Britney Spears?". Good question! lol Errrrr.

Yesterday we had a lovely afternoon - the weather was gorgeous. We had a picnic in the meadows and I read some of my book. Finished it! The Brutal Art by Jesse Kellerman. Very gentle/good read. Not a particularly sharp ending, perhaps because I didn't understand its subtlety?! Got another few books from the library today - and I've started on one of them, Soul Murder by Andrew Nugent. Seems a very easy and quick read at the moment.

Started my period today. Yay. I was even thinking I'm perhaps not going to have another period again --- menopause etc., etc. I'm 44 so perhaps it's going to happen quite soon. It was a relief that I started my period. I actually felt a bit bereft and strange to think that I'll soon not be having them anymore...well 'soon' whatever/whenever that is.

Husband is doing a bootsale early in the morning tomorrow. The weather is forecast to be warm and sunny - fingerscrossed. Daughter will be helping him and I'll be popping along shortly after he begins with my other two children and my parents. Husband's car is playing up dreadfully, so we may have to fork out for a 'new' car for him. His current car is quite old and has done over 100,000 miles, apparently.

I have no idea why I've come back to blogging. I guess it's just someplace to spew my trivia. I really have NO idea.

My MOF (I think I referred to him with different initials/acronym earlier in this blog!) - male online friend - is back today from a week on holiday with his family. We have never chatted sexually and I never intend to. He's just a like a female to me, to be frank. Of course, there's always going to be a tiny piece in my head, and probably his too, where you think..what if and so on perhaps. My husband can totally, totally trust me - I mean I would never sleep with another man ever. I don't know why but it's in my psyche - I just don't have it in me to cheat. God knows why. Just couldn't do it.

Friday 31 July

I don't have work today. No reason to get up tooooo early.

Just before 6 am this morning.....BEEP BEEP BEEP (repeat very loudly and high pitched 50 times). Stop and then start again 5 minutes later. Repeat 4 times. Husband is already up and out of the house walking the dog. He's forgotten to turn off the alarm. We don't sleep in the same room (he snores and farts, farts and snores and takes whatever covers there are for himself totally).

I'm pissed off.

Fecking eeeeejit!!!!! lol

Thursday 30 July

I set myself such high, ludicrously high, standards - that all I do is fail miserably most of the time. Why do I punish myself? Perfection is .... unachieveable, at least for the majority of the people for the great majority of the time, in my opinion.

This morning just did my head in. Rushing around trying to get things tidy/sorted, children waiting in the car (obviously arguing/fighting as per usual!) with the dog. Me, mopping the floor, then the phone rings. In my totally stressed out state I answer (not too rudely) "I'm on my way out. Who is that?"...turns out it's my friggin' boss. She's asking for a document on the computer, which I think is not accessible to her at all. More stress. My password given to her (which is something we should NOT do, but still....she's my boss...and there's no way she would get the document without it). After I put the phone down I feel like total shit. The document is my job description. Have I got a job or WHAT now? Get to the car.....middle child has hit youngest child with a comb so hard that the bloody comb has snapped. I could scream/cry/walk away. Or more. End up driving the wrong way to the park with the kids and dog...have to turn around. I'm quiet. I don't swear, scream or ANYTHING. Just feel like a white fog has descended around me. Numb. Kids notice. They start to behave slightly better. God I love them.

Tuesday 28 July

Been clothes buying. Lots of cheeeeap clothes. I am a mug for them! Got a lovely, black mac for only a fiver yesterday and a handbag for £1! Daughter was the first to use it.

A couple of my Real Life friends have been asking me about Facebook. I really like to keep some of myself private. I guess Facebook comes into that category also. Don't know why - just always been a bit like that. There is a side to me which is very techno and nerdish I suppose. Why would anyone want to waste what little time they have on such trivia....that's what I think perhaps it's about. Guilt? Embarassment? God knows. No more analysing.

Sons are at their grandparents today, until early afternoon I think. Daughter is still asleep in bed! She went to bed quite late last night. Watching crap on t.v. Mind numbing crap.

Tuesday 21 July

Penultimate day at work! Rainy and drab outside, but hey-ho.

Husband yesterday looking in the newspapers "Blimey, Uretha Franklin's got big".

Looking back at posts by Belle De Jour (I think I typed 'Du' previously, my mistake) - a male friend of hers talking to her about a woman he liked and upon finding out that the woman didn't want anal sex Belle said to drop her, as she was too (basically) frigid or non-exploratory sexually. Well, honestly! Just because a woman doesn't want to take it up the arse haha. It doesn't mean that they are frigid OR boring in bed. What a narrow mind. Not everyone likes or wants anal sex. Mind you, from a call girl, what kind of response would one expect. God, now I am being narrow-minded.