Met up with Ann today at the local shopping centre. Coffee in Starbucks. Frothy capuccino. She told me about her ex - lived as his lodger, well started as a lodger I think and then a relationship with him which turned sour. Went to Boots with her and did the usually 'perfume testing'. Wish I had the money to buy some of those expensive perfumes without worrying about the bill! I really like the Harajuku Lovers perfumes. Cute little dollies. Perhaps a bit immature, but they are sweet. Went to M&S with her and she bought some tomatoes etc. Expensive in there! Said if she wanted to meet up for coffee., etc., to text me...perhaps after half term. Hope she does. Would be nice to continue the frienship. I will text her otherwise.

Did a run this afternoon. The usual 2nd Friday meet up at the local park. I did my best ever time for the 5 k....about 27 minutes and 38 seconds! I came FIRST out of the 31 runners. Whether or not they made an effort, I really don't know. It's a bit worrying that I actually came first, as I don't I am that good at all.

My online male friend (OMF from now now) is going away tonight for a week, skiing. Never been but I would love to go. Again - finances won't allow it.

Watched a gory ghost film this evening. I enjoyed it but too much swearing and a little too gory.

Just logged into perv.com and it's the same old story. None of the men understand the word 'no', or they choose to ignore the word completely. They are all highly (the men on there) homophobic, except of course those who are homosexuals or bisexuals. It all becomes such a drag after the initial 'thrills' and 'excitement'. It reinforces the stereotypes we perhaps all (?) have of men/women. Luckily I occasionally meet someone who refreshes my hope in humankind on there. Most are one handed typists who want to show you their knobs. How original lol.

Got pissed off with JS at work today. She's a right cow. She needs a bloody slap. I really would love to tell her to f off, but can't. She takes things the wrong way - a very snappy woman. She moans about everything. What a horrible cow. I don't seem to learn my lesson, which is - say as little to her as possible and have as little contact with her as possible, that is the lesson! I hope she feels guilty for being nasty to me. She complains about what a little monster her daughter is, yet fails to realise where her daughter probably gets it all from, i.e. her! lol I have to say I truly believe in what goes around comes around.

This diary is fast becoming a vent for me. Full of moans and groans. I should've named this blog "A Grumpy Old Woman" - much more apt.

I helped DD do her C&G's refreshments - the layout and carrying all the heavy bottles down the hall. I used to be in two minds about DD but she really is a sweet woman. She is good through and through. Also PW - another woman who used to, and still does, get on my nerves with her pernicketty ways - but she has a heart of gold and knows right from wrong.

I emailed the OU, after chatting on line to a woman on perv.com. I have asked what courses would be suited to someone (me!) who is interested in studying to become a S&LT. I know I'm a lazy cow, sometimes. It would take me far longer to look for the 'goods', even though the OU might not be able to help me, there is a hope that they might. I long to do something different and get away from the stale surroundings and people who have been mean to me at work. I'd like to say "up yours" to all those who think it is their right (being higher up the ladder than me) to bully or say rude things to me.

Went to Tesco's today to get refreshments for the C&Gs presentation tomorrow. It was nice to get out of that boring office. Boy, what a release. I like being busy, and when I have to scramble around to find work it bores me and annoys me at the same time.
Watching Lucky Number Slevin this evening. A gangster type film. Okay but just too much shooting in it. Ben Kingsley doing a great job of the American accent (Brooklyn?).

One of my bosses is retiring in May. Just wonder who the hell I will get in her place. Hope it's someone nice, or perhaps her job will be scrapped, saving money? Then it's a worry what will happen to me. Searched internet at work looking for info' on Speech and Language Therapist courses. I feel it's something I could try my hand at...just getting too old for this though. Perhaps I should just relax and do my shitty admin job until I retire.

Just had an argument with husband this morning, shortly before he's due to leave for work. Everyone is asleep apart from me and him. We're downstairs and I've just made three bowls of breakfast for the children. He says "come on dog, frontroom" (where I've just put the bowls of food on the table). Needless to say, how long will food last with a labrador, when left alone with it? I was just about to get into the shower, so I was angry with him. No bloody commonsense. He just doesn't think. Always the same.

You know what, the thing is with blogs (I've had a few before this one) is that if you aren't very careful you end up tempering your posts to what you think readers will find interesting. Well, I'm saying bollocks to all that shit now. I did that in the past and it really was crap - personally speaking. I'm going to just spill my brains out on here....ugly bits and all. If you dislike what you read then pass me by.

Just been on that cam site again. One bloke, who I apparently cammed with a 'while back' came back on cam and obviously wanted to cam with me again. I am in nooo mood for all that. Been there and done that, and mostly now the primary reason I log on to the site now is to have a laugh with a few friends I've made on there. Anyway this bloke had his vast hairy stomach on cam, and what a total turn off that was. I asked him if he'd put on weight and he replied, yes - he'd given up smoking and put on about 2 stones in weight! Yum...very attractive NOT. Needless to say, I wished him good luck in losing the extra flab and he thanked me and 'went'. Do men really think that women like wobbly guts on men? I'm afraid I'm not one of the women who does, if there are any. And I know that obviously looks are not the be all and end all, sexually/attractiveness speaking I have to say that I find a fat bloke totally unsexy.

What am I going to write here? My thoughts, when I feel like I want to write them. I am full of the usual crappy insecurities....life isn't perfect. What is? Live for the day.